Sunday, June 22, 2008

1st project - write a chicklit

We're done with the thoughts... finished with the drama (for now)... This moment is the time for actions! For my first project, I will try, no, I will start writing a novel! Nothing big time for now, my target is to write a chicklit. It's more of your average romance novel rather than the best-selling ones... No James Patterson here yet... hahaha...

My friend said that this publisher usually gives out about 5000-7000 payment per story... The story will be about 100-150pages... Hmm, I wonder how long it will take me to write that... Sigh... I need help... I need inspiration... I need to resign from work and focus on this...

Nope, bad idea. I can't leave work. I don't have money yet for insurance. Plus, that's an easy 13K to lose... I can't afford to lose my job... So, I guess I'll need to work extra hours to get this done...

Wish me luck.

please knock, lady luck!

Three 50 bills and one 20 bill. This is what my mom gave me last Chinese new year. They say such gifts will bring good fortune to the recepient. I hope she's right.

But then months had already passed. Maybe luck is not what we deem it to be. Maybe it's just something that tips the scale. Just like in competitions, exams, or even interviews, you don't just pass without making an effort. Perhaps blessings don't just go knocking on our doors. Maybe we need to go out and search for it. And hope up above that with LUCK, we will find what we are searching for. Opportunity may knock once or twice but it is we who opens the door.

So as I journey to find success on this endeavor, I'll start small - beginning with a small fortune that may bring me closer to lady luck.

I hope in time, this 170 will soon be a million!

Friday, June 20, 2008

life beneath the ground

I have nothing. No. I have less than nothing. Nothing is when you have zero cash at hand. Nothing is when you lay flat on the ground with the earth enveloping your existence. In my case, I have obligations. There are loans to pay, bills to settle, and pledges to carry on. Not to mention other duties to act upon fiscally with a loving family. Sad to say but I’m currently below ground zero.

But it doesn’t need to be this way. It’s not too late to change such predicament. I still have my life to live. Opportunities abound! All I need now is the courage to strive above this dirt. Forget inspiration for now. All I need is a lil’ bit of perspiration to soar! Okay. A lot! But then again, though times demand a lot from these feeble arms of mine, I’m still young. I need to use all resources at hand to fill my future with certainty. That’s what I should do – bank on youth so I will have grains for the rainy days. Use every bit of energy I have to set aside ample wealth so that I can live life to the fullest before I finally become old and weary.

seasons passed, my time has not begun

It had been more than a year ago since I marched up the stage to receive my diploma. That piece of parchment symbolizes a great future ahead. It was a proof that I have earned a degree – and from a reputable school at that! It was my education materialized! Sigh! Education, such an elusive word – considered to be the greatest treasure any parents can endow their children. It really was. But now, I can’t even seem to capitalize on this “knowledge and expertise”. Let alone show tangible gratitude to my parents. Come to think of it, I have never seen such qualifications needed in varying job descriptions. And now I’m left with no choice. Stuck with a thankless job that provides my daily bread, I can only dream of life smeared with butter.